Prayer is Powerful

I am talking to my body before bed. As I massage my feet and look intently at my physical body, now pretty hairless, I start apologizing for the poison that is killing it slowly. “If we don't kill these cells, all of us will die.” I am trying to pep talk the cancer cells into making a sacrifice for the betterment of the whole. I'm included in this sacrifice— it's not just the cells dying, it is me. Every part of my body suffers some—including the mental piece that gives me consciousness. That line, "kill that cancer" has a different ring when it means killing you along the way. A bodily pep talk was in order.

I lay in bed. Heart racing. Nausea setting in. I can’t sleep, hyped up on steroids. I cuddle in bed with the pups already passed out in blissful sleep. I pray first for Candace, it’s now 1 AM. She has become an angel on this journey. We are on the same walk, with her infusions two days later than me. She was going for round 2 that day. Her experience has been extremely rough. I pray in the childlike hands posture we teach, "Let this round be better for her!"

Suddenly, this prayer shifts, and I begin to envision the energy surrounding me. Your prayers and good vibes. I notice the feel of my new sheets. My hair so thin, I can even feel the cold pillowcase on my scalp, a new body sensation. I feel the wind and hear the sound from my fans.  All this energy is not just in the sunshine from you—it's the dogs, trees, grass, river, birds, even the atoms and cells that make up my mattress and sheets—holding me in a supportive gentle embrace. The blanket is hugging me. I begin to recall the signs I’ve experienced from loved ones who have gone before me. I remember the dragonfly that keeps hanging around me on my deck. I take a deep breath and picture myself connecting to all this energy around me— like in the movie Avatar when they connect to the tree of souls.

It was a moment that felt parallel to an experience I read in Richard Rohr’s book The Universal Christ.

In her autobiography, A Rocking-Horse Catholic, the twentieth-century English mystic Caryll Houselander describes how an ordinary underground train journey in London transformed into a vision that changed her life…

“I was in an underground train, a crowed train in which all sorts of people jostled together, sitting and strap-hanging – workers of every description going home at the end of the day. Quite suddenly I saw with my mind, but as vividly as a wonderful picture, Christ in all of them. But I saw more than that; not only was Christ in everyone one of them, living in them, dying in them, rejoicing in them, sorrowing in them – but because He was in them, and because they were here, the whole world was here too, here in this underground train; not only the world as it was at that moment, not only all the people in all the countries of the world, but all those people who had lived in the past, and all those yet to come.

I came out into the street and walked for a long time in the crowds. It was the same here, on every side, in every passer-by, everywhere – Christ.

I, too, was seeing Christ in everything. All of creation! I breathe deeper. I feel so connected with all of it. And suddenly my prayer finds a song, "Fill my cup and let it overflow. Fill my cup and let it overflow. Fill my cup and let it overflow, let it overflow with love." As my body is being slowly poisoned, I was praying for this energy to fill me—energy that I do not have on my own.

I remember a quote I had written down from the TV show, Alone, "It's just you, the creator, and creation. You can't get more real than that." Suddenly, I was overflowing with an energy source outside of me. I kept singing. “Fill my cup and let it overflow.”  Slowly, my heart stopped racing. My nausea subsided (I did take another nausea medicine 30 minutes prior). Then, I slept.

I honestly have a new appreciation for my body. As people visit, I ask to not talk about me. I want to hear your stories! I see things in a different light. How much we silence our bodies in life’s craziness and expectations. How often we ignore what our body is telling us due to the needs of others and work deadlines.

How much healthier would we all be if we took the time to listen to our bodies? I have never been this idol in my life and I have never paid this much attention to my body. It’s like I’m getting to know myself on a different level. This new level includes just how connected our bodies are to everything. I mean, I’ve preached that we’re stardust plenty of times. I think this is the first time I feel it.

14 responses to “Prayer is Powerful”

  1. Joann Johnson Avatar
    Joann Johnson

    I woke late this morning so missed my Bible Study and devotions, so thank you for yours! Beautiful!

  2. Tammy Barvian Avatar
    Tammy Barvian

    Beautiful you! Love you and praying without ceasing!

  3. Amy Kocias Avatar
    Amy Kocias

    Those “mystic moments” are so special, when we quiet ourselves – our bodies & minds – to hear & see what we should. Prayers for your healing your body & strength for your body AND spirit within, Dana! Love you bunches!

  4. Krista Zimmerman Avatar
    Krista Zimmerman

    Thank you for sharing, Dana! Praying for you ❤️❤️❤️

  5. Margaret Vredeveld Avatar
    Margaret Vredeveld

    Thank you, Dana! It’s one thing to preach a healing concept and quite another to live it intimately…. 💞🙏🏼💞😘

  6. Debi Avatar
    Debi

    Thank you for taking us along with your feelings and sharing your gifts of positive thoughts and being able to see God in all of us💫

  7. Elizabeth Meadows Avatar
    Elizabeth Meadows

    This was beautiful, Dana.

  8. Penny Avatar
    Penny

    Start calling yourself healed, happy, whole, blessed and prosperous. You are loved more than you can fathom. You are important and valued! I admire how strong you are. Your ability to make the ordinary beautiful is a true gift. I am rooting for you . You are and will continue to be in my prayers

  9. Bill Avatar
    Bill

    Powerful. Beautiful. Rise up and be raised by that power you see and feel everywhere. We are with you Dana!

  10. Jan Eversole Avatar
    Jan Eversole

    The tears in my eyes are for the hope and strength I got from this post. Today you made me stronger. Thank you. It’s (I can’t come up with a word so I’ll use…wonderful) that you can feel our sunshine and feel how you fit in the universe at this moment. I now know you can feel a subtle push or pull each time I (we) pray for you. You are surrounded and supported with love.

  11. debby Avatar
    debby

    praying for the good cells in your body to help fight the bad cells and for the “medicine” to help(i get the poison thing but being a nurse it makes me wince) love u, all here in CO praying for you

  12. Christina Avatar
    Christina

    This is absolutely beautiful. We are praying for you every week at Faith Lutheran! Thank you for taking us on this journey with you

  13. Amanda Kane Avatar
    Amanda Kane

    Thank you for taking us with you on this path. Your thoughts and perspectives are beautiful. Keep feeling the prayerful energy that we are all sending to you. We love you. 🥰

  14. Sherry Pulverente Avatar
    Sherry Pulverente

    I love you. That’s all❤️

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